Hey!!
Okay so today was HELL!!
Packing took up the biggest part of the day..Oh, my God..it was insane!!
I had no idea how much stuff I had until I actually started getting it all ready to go..as soon as mom finishes up that meeting tomorrow.
It's prettty safe to say that I am more or less scared shitless about what that dumb broad is gonna tell mom..Mehh...just another week of this bull shit. For what will be most likely one of a million times in the coming week: Coming to Family of Faith from an academic standpoint was probably one of the biggest mistakes of my effing life!!!
Hi, my name is Sarah and I am an effing IDIOT!! #EpicFail!!
Well, I think that's about it!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Just Another Day in Paradise Originally written 5-4-11
Heyy!!
Okay so right now it's about 12:30 at night and right now I've come to the ever-elusive conclusion that I did absolutely nothing productive at all today. Uhm...Yeahh...I've got a shit load of stuff to dot tomorrow. FML!!
Okay so this would be what's left of my to-do list...of which I have the extreme joy and pleasure in completing ALL. DAMN. DAY.:
Laundry
Put up shoes
Put up clothes
Organize pink shelves
Go through clothes
Make grocery list
Gather up homework
Clean out closet
Clean off dressers
Pack
Make resource file
Make lesson plans
This should be fun...especially since I'm taking a shit load of it home on Friday. **Sigh** Also note the fact that my room looks like a mother effing war zone right now.
Ugghhh...Tomorrow is gonna be HELL!!
Okay well I am mother freaking tired and I've got a long ass day of cleaning and packing!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so right now it's about 12:30 at night and right now I've come to the ever-elusive conclusion that I did absolutely nothing productive at all today. Uhm...Yeahh...I've got a shit load of stuff to dot tomorrow. FML!!
Okay so this would be what's left of my to-do list...of which I have the extreme joy and pleasure in completing ALL. DAMN. DAY.:
Laundry
Put up shoes
Put up clothes
Organize pink shelves
Go through clothes
Make grocery list
Gather up homework
Clean out closet
Clean off dressers
Pack
Make resource file
Make lesson plans
This should be fun...especially since I'm taking a shit load of it home on Friday. **Sigh** Also note the fact that my room looks like a mother effing war zone right now.
Ugghhh...Tomorrow is gonna be HELL!!
Okay well I am mother freaking tired and I've got a long ass day of cleaning and packing!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Just Another Tuesday Originally written 5-3-11
Heyy!!
Okay so right now I'm listening to a Rascal Flatts song and it's making me think about Sadie. God, I didn't think I would be impacted this much. I guess it just pisses me off to no mother effing end that it takes this kind of shit to make you realize how short and fragile life really is.
So tonight was another step closer to being done with this semester. We had our portfolio showing thing tonight. I think that it went relatively well. I'm really glad that it's finally over and it's one less thing for me to worry about. :-D
Uhm...After that, I got a call from a very good friend of mine. I hadn't heard from him since he called me one night back in 2008 and literally saved my life. It's been quite some time now and I'm so grateful that we're more or less back in contact. He means a great deal to me and he saved my life..what more can you say?? hahaha.
Holy hell...it's 2:15am...
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so right now I'm listening to a Rascal Flatts song and it's making me think about Sadie. God, I didn't think I would be impacted this much. I guess it just pisses me off to no mother effing end that it takes this kind of shit to make you realize how short and fragile life really is.
So tonight was another step closer to being done with this semester. We had our portfolio showing thing tonight. I think that it went relatively well. I'm really glad that it's finally over and it's one less thing for me to worry about. :-D
Uhm...After that, I got a call from a very good friend of mine. I hadn't heard from him since he called me one night back in 2008 and literally saved my life. It's been quite some time now and I'm so grateful that we're more or less back in contact. He means a great deal to me and he saved my life..what more can you say?? hahaha.
Holy hell...it's 2:15am...
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Another day!! Originally written 5-2-11
Hey!! Okay so today has been relatively relaxing. Yeahh...Uhm..again..I had class this mornign and yet again, I got nothing accomplished. this shall be a very interesting and a very late night. Well right now it's 6:20 and I'm just hanging out until it's time to head up to class.
Okay soo...I just got back and I've GOT to get started on this mountain of stuff I have to do.
I'm just gonna end it here. Bahaha!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay soo...I just got back and I've GOT to get started on this mountain of stuff I have to do.
I'm just gonna end it here. Bahaha!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
These Historic Nights Originally written 5-1-11
"Osama Bin Laden found dead!!"
Hmm..a decade has passed since 9/11/01
Part of me feels happy but another part of me feels like this is just the calm before the storm. Time will tell how this all plays out. So today was my last Sunday at Family of Faith.
Definitely bittersweet...It's so weirdhow fast this whole year went by!!
Uhm..yeahh..well, I'm tired!!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Hmm..a decade has passed since 9/11/01
Part of me feels happy but another part of me feels like this is just the calm before the storm. Time will tell how this all plays out. So today was my last Sunday at Family of Faith.
Definitely bittersweet...It's so weirdhow fast this whole year went by!!
Uhm..yeahh..well, I'm tired!!
Peace out, Girl scout!
The Day from Hell!! Originally Written 4-30-11
Hey!!
Okay so it's currently a little after 3am.
This has been such an eventful, long, dramatic day..not to mention long.
Okay so today we filmed the video for Theology II.
It was a really long and dirty experience.
I was DISGUSTING!!
After I took a shower and ate...I had a really...bittersweet..conversation with LT via Facebook IM.
Okay so LT said how excited he was about me coming back to Bacone and being part of the worship team again.
And then he mentioned that he wasn't going to be with the praise team anymore.
I was like "WHAT THE HELL!?!"
And then he said "That's the good news..you don't have to put up with me next year..I thought you would be happy about that!!"
By this point, I was shaking and was seriously on the verge of tears. I don't know what the hell is going on but I've got a gut feeling that he was forced to step down for one reason or another.
What I do know is that this really, really sucks. Just when things couldn't get worse and/or somber or depressing..they got worse..
Uhm...even as I write this...the very air is heavy with unshed tears.
Uhm..Sadie Wilson was thrown off a 4-wheeler this afternoon and died soon after being taken to the hospital.
I hadn't seen her in a couple of years but it seems so unfair...I've found myself asking "Why?" More times than I really care to admit.
In other ways, it hasn't really hit me yet.
What's more is that when I think of her, I can't help but think about Jordon.
Anyway, it's been a really rough night.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so it's currently a little after 3am.
This has been such an eventful, long, dramatic day..not to mention long.
Okay so today we filmed the video for Theology II.
It was a really long and dirty experience.
I was DISGUSTING!!
After I took a shower and ate...I had a really...bittersweet..conversation with LT via Facebook IM.
Okay so LT said how excited he was about me coming back to Bacone and being part of the worship team again.
And then he mentioned that he wasn't going to be with the praise team anymore.
I was like "WHAT THE HELL!?!"
And then he said "That's the good news..you don't have to put up with me next year..I thought you would be happy about that!!"
By this point, I was shaking and was seriously on the verge of tears. I don't know what the hell is going on but I've got a gut feeling that he was forced to step down for one reason or another.
What I do know is that this really, really sucks. Just when things couldn't get worse and/or somber or depressing..they got worse..
Uhm...even as I write this...the very air is heavy with unshed tears.
Uhm..Sadie Wilson was thrown off a 4-wheeler this afternoon and died soon after being taken to the hospital.
I hadn't seen her in a couple of years but it seems so unfair...I've found myself asking "Why?" More times than I really care to admit.
In other ways, it hasn't really hit me yet.
What's more is that when I think of her, I can't help but think about Jordon.
Anyway, it's been a really rough night.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Thank God Friday is Finally Here!! Originally written 4-29-11
Hey!!
So right now I'm sitting in the library and it's been a relatively bsy and hectic morning.
I had a dream that I slept through everything and woke up freaking the hell out...Like I seriously about flipped the fuck out.
Okay so I had this wild ass crazy dream that I slept through John's class. I was honest to God almost in tears!
I checked my phone and was up in plenty of time for class.
After class...I helped clean the college building, went to Subway to grab lunch...
Right now it's 3pm and I need a couple hours to chill before I move onto more cleaning and homework.
Bahaha!!
Hey! I'm back!
Okay so right now it's after 2am and I am freaking tired..I got nothing accomplished so I'm just gonna end this here.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
So right now I'm sitting in the library and it's been a relatively bsy and hectic morning.
I had a dream that I slept through everything and woke up freaking the hell out...Like I seriously about flipped the fuck out.
Okay so I had this wild ass crazy dream that I slept through John's class. I was honest to God almost in tears!
I checked my phone and was up in plenty of time for class.
After class...I helped clean the college building, went to Subway to grab lunch...
Right now it's 3pm and I need a couple hours to chill before I move onto more cleaning and homework.
Bahaha!!
Hey! I'm back!
Okay so right now it's after 2am and I am freaking tired..I got nothing accomplished so I'm just gonna end this here.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Just Another Day in the Life of Sarah Originally written 4-28-11
Hey!!
Okay so it is technically Friday morning..uhm..yeah..I'm still wide awake which is gonna suck when I go to class..but anyway..today was relaxing. I slept in, hung out...met with the stupid bitch which again pissed me off..oh well..three more sessions.
I ran there and back and thought that I was gonna die. Mehh..hahaha..
I'm staying here this weekend which is great because I have a shitload of homework to do...plus my room looks like a war zone. I also need to map out my week and figure out what goes home with me next weekend.
Anyway, I gotta try to get some sleep!!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Okay so it is technically Friday morning..uhm..yeah..I'm still wide awake which is gonna suck when I go to class..but anyway..today was relaxing. I slept in, hung out...met with the stupid bitch which again pissed me off..oh well..three more sessions.
I ran there and back and thought that I was gonna die. Mehh..hahaha..
I'm staying here this weekend which is great because I have a shitload of homework to do...plus my room looks like a war zone. I also need to map out my week and figure out what goes home with me next weekend.
Anyway, I gotta try to get some sleep!!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Silly Rabbit, Cheetos are for Breakfast!! 4-27-11
Hey!!
Okay so right now, I'm in the library.
I've had a relatively relaxing morning so far.
I got all of my portfolio stuff printed and now I'm gettin' ready to head to US History.
Hey! I'm back!!
Okay so right now, I'm sitting in Theology!
So I kicked ass on my Theology test...It was 20 point boost over the last test.
So I get to meet with Bitch from Hell tomorrow.
Dreading, dreading..Dreading!!My life pretty much sucks.
On a happier note..I have 4 sessions left!!
THANK GOD!!
I don't give a flying fuck if graduation and all that other bull shit is mandatory.
I'm getting the hell out of dodge!I unfortunately am not going home this weekend and am stuck here!
At this point...I don't give a damn about what these corrupt ass peoiple say about this false prophesy bull shit. or what the hell ever over me, claming they're being prompted by God. To be honest, I think that to an extent, I will always be thankful for being able to spend a year here. I would rather leave this experience knowing that I've experienced it..rather than always wonder "what if". I think I also needed to spend a year out on my own to grow up and mature. I also think that I would have regretted not coming here and having this experience.
In other ways, I will always be grateful for having the classroom experience and other classes that have better equipped me for my future career.
In other ways, I wish I had never come here because when I began the process to come here last summer, it seemed like everyone was hard core all like "we love you"...Oh..my God..It's only been an hour..hahaha..I'm gonna be here FOREVER!! Okay..so..Like I was saying...it feels like I'm seriously flying solo because I feel like not one of the admin or what the hell ever does not have my best interests at heart. I honest to God do not feel loved or accepted here.
It pisses me off and it hurts me to absolutely no fucking end that LT of all people was willing to step up and try to reach out and try to help me. It sucks that knowing that I was a biitttccchhhh to him...It seems like when you're a student at Family of Faith...you are nothing but a number.
I hated how everyone was all in my personal life and my personal, private business. It freaking pisses me off knowing htat this is where I'm at. I hate living this life where I have this non shakable feeling of being so confined and so damn suffocated and being like a brainwashed robotic puppet. The silver lining in all of this is the fact that I've learned the fucking ugly unforgiving truth that you never know what you've got until it's gone. Being away from Bacone this year has definitely helped me better appreciate how much I truly love Bacone and how wrong I was for bitching about how I hated the dorms, praise team, and the dramatic BS that I always had to deal with. This experience has ultimately taught me that it's time to come home. It's time to confront the demons and stuff that I ran from. So..time flew by and I have less than an hour left of class. I have a crap load of stuff to do when I get back..Oh..and someone gave me this cute card/note thing. This is what it said:
Sarah:
I pray you would let the truth-God's truth set you free. I pray God will work in your life in major ways. God has a great plan and destiny for your life but you have to choose to walk in it. Sarah, I know you have compassion for others and I pray you would soften your heart again. I pray that you would grow in your walk with God. May God bless and keep you, May His face shine upon you, and be gracious and give you peace (Praying for you!)
Needless to say, that this was extremely needed right now and as much as this particular person pisses me off sometimes, it's great to have the feeling of having at least one person there for me.
Damn, this thing is a lot longer than I thought it would be!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so right now, I'm in the library.
I've had a relatively relaxing morning so far.
I got all of my portfolio stuff printed and now I'm gettin' ready to head to US History.
Hey! I'm back!!
Okay so right now, I'm sitting in Theology!
So I kicked ass on my Theology test...It was 20 point boost over the last test.
So I get to meet with Bitch from Hell tomorrow.
Dreading, dreading..Dreading!!My life pretty much sucks.
On a happier note..I have 4 sessions left!!
THANK GOD!!
I don't give a flying fuck if graduation and all that other bull shit is mandatory.
I'm getting the hell out of dodge!I unfortunately am not going home this weekend and am stuck here!
At this point...I don't give a damn about what these corrupt ass peoiple say about this false prophesy bull shit. or what the hell ever over me, claming they're being prompted by God. To be honest, I think that to an extent, I will always be thankful for being able to spend a year here. I would rather leave this experience knowing that I've experienced it..rather than always wonder "what if". I think I also needed to spend a year out on my own to grow up and mature. I also think that I would have regretted not coming here and having this experience.
In other ways, I will always be grateful for having the classroom experience and other classes that have better equipped me for my future career.
In other ways, I wish I had never come here because when I began the process to come here last summer, it seemed like everyone was hard core all like "we love you"...Oh..my God..It's only been an hour..hahaha..I'm gonna be here FOREVER!! Okay..so..Like I was saying...it feels like I'm seriously flying solo because I feel like not one of the admin or what the hell ever does not have my best interests at heart. I honest to God do not feel loved or accepted here.
It pisses me off and it hurts me to absolutely no fucking end that LT of all people was willing to step up and try to reach out and try to help me. It sucks that knowing that I was a biitttccchhhh to him...It seems like when you're a student at Family of Faith...you are nothing but a number.
I hated how everyone was all in my personal life and my personal, private business. It freaking pisses me off knowing htat this is where I'm at. I hate living this life where I have this non shakable feeling of being so confined and so damn suffocated and being like a brainwashed robotic puppet. The silver lining in all of this is the fact that I've learned the fucking ugly unforgiving truth that you never know what you've got until it's gone. Being away from Bacone this year has definitely helped me better appreciate how much I truly love Bacone and how wrong I was for bitching about how I hated the dorms, praise team, and the dramatic BS that I always had to deal with. This experience has ultimately taught me that it's time to come home. It's time to confront the demons and stuff that I ran from. So..time flew by and I have less than an hour left of class. I have a crap load of stuff to do when I get back..Oh..and someone gave me this cute card/note thing. This is what it said:
Sarah:
I pray you would let the truth-God's truth set you free. I pray God will work in your life in major ways. God has a great plan and destiny for your life but you have to choose to walk in it. Sarah, I know you have compassion for others and I pray you would soften your heart again. I pray that you would grow in your walk with God. May God bless and keep you, May His face shine upon you, and be gracious and give you peace (Praying for you!)
Needless to say, that this was extremely needed right now and as much as this particular person pisses me off sometimes, it's great to have the feeling of having at least one person there for me.
Damn, this thing is a lot longer than I thought it would be!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
It's a New Dawn! It's a New Day!! Originally written 4-26-11
Hey!!
Okay so today was relatively quiet.
Uhmm...today I slept in until almost 11.
I had a hella crazy dream...Okay so I had this dream that I was back at Bacone, hanging out in the foyer of the chapel like some friends and I used to do.
I guess I was hella tired because when I finally woke up, I had no idea where the hall I was .
It took a minute for me to realize where I was.
Hahaha...So I'm still kind of sad about yesterday but it's not the end of the world.
I met with the ignorant bitch from hell again. She pissed me off.
Anyway...Imma go!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today was relatively quiet.
Uhmm...today I slept in until almost 11.
I had a hella crazy dream...Okay so I had this dream that I was back at Bacone, hanging out in the foyer of the chapel like some friends and I used to do.
I guess I was hella tired because when I finally woke up, I had no idea where the hall I was .
It took a minute for me to realize where I was.
Hahaha...So I'm still kind of sad about yesterday but it's not the end of the world.
I met with the ignorant bitch from hell again. She pissed me off.
Anyway...Imma go!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Trouble in Paradise? Originally written 4-25-11
Heyy!!
Well, today has to have been one of the shittiest days of my life!! I FX'd English Comp. FMFL!!
God...I swear...I CANNOT LEAVE FAMILY OF FAITH FUCKING FAST ENOUGH!! On the plus side...it will give me more time to focus on my other classes.
I'm just praying to God that Mom doesn't find out.
If she does...I plan on telling her that I bombed the final.
Until I can think of a better plan...I guess that's it. Bahaha.
I'm not sure what I'm more pissed off about....myself or this whole mess of a situation..DAMN!
Oh well..live and learn!!
Unfortunately, the price I paid for this life lesson was pretty hard core.
Anyway, I'm exhausted and I have had one long assed brutal day.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Well, today has to have been one of the shittiest days of my life!! I FX'd English Comp. FMFL!!
God...I swear...I CANNOT LEAVE FAMILY OF FAITH FUCKING FAST ENOUGH!! On the plus side...it will give me more time to focus on my other classes.
I'm just praying to God that Mom doesn't find out.
If she does...I plan on telling her that I bombed the final.
Until I can think of a better plan...I guess that's it. Bahaha.
I'm not sure what I'm more pissed off about....myself or this whole mess of a situation..DAMN!
Oh well..live and learn!!
Unfortunately, the price I paid for this life lesson was pretty hard core.
Anyway, I'm exhausted and I have had one long assed brutal day.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Happy Easter!! Originally written 4-24-11
Wow!!
So I started this journal exactly one month ago!!
Okay so today is Easter Sunday!!
Uhmm...yeahh..it's storming AGAIN
Uhhmm...we're about to head to the dorms and it's storming hella crazy right now.
To be totally honest...I'm a little worried about mom coming home alone...
Homework awaits!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
So I started this journal exactly one month ago!!
Okay so today is Easter Sunday!!
Uhmm...yeahh..it's storming AGAIN
Uhhmm...we're about to head to the dorms and it's storming hella crazy right now.
To be totally honest...I'm a little worried about mom coming home alone...
Homework awaits!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
My Deliverer, My Messiah, My Redeemer Originally written 4-23-11
Hey!!
Oaky so it looks like today's gonna be a relatively relaxing day since the 'rents are gonna be gone for most of the day. Thank God! Bahaha!!
I'm probably gonna spend the biggest part of the day lounging on the couch!!
Hey!! So mom and I just got back from Las Fuentes...and they're headed out. I'll write more later.
Hey..they just got back and I've spent the last hour straightening my hair. so I logged onto Facebook and saw LT's status about an Easter drama/musical production thing that was being held at Boulevard.
I've never gotten ready for a church thing that fast in my life..EVER!!
So...we just got back. All I can really say is...it was AWESOME!! Okay so it was one of the best productions I've seen in a long time!! It can be compared to the Christmas train..minus the actual train..bahaha!
That's the only way I can really describe it. bahaha!
LT did a solo....SOOO EFFING AMAZING!!
I was like "Holy crap!! That's LT!!" Mom's jaw about hit the ground...she was sooo shocked!!
The only thing that would have made it perfect would have been to be able to see him and give him a hug (Sweet Jebus..did I really just say that?!)
Oh, well...we had to leave anyway to get stuff ready for tomorrow.
Well, this stormy weather is making me soo sleepy!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Oaky so it looks like today's gonna be a relatively relaxing day since the 'rents are gonna be gone for most of the day. Thank God! Bahaha!!
I'm probably gonna spend the biggest part of the day lounging on the couch!!
Hey!! So mom and I just got back from Las Fuentes...and they're headed out. I'll write more later.
Hey..they just got back and I've spent the last hour straightening my hair. so I logged onto Facebook and saw LT's status about an Easter drama/musical production thing that was being held at Boulevard.
I've never gotten ready for a church thing that fast in my life..EVER!!
So...we just got back. All I can really say is...it was AWESOME!! Okay so it was one of the best productions I've seen in a long time!! It can be compared to the Christmas train..minus the actual train..bahaha!
That's the only way I can really describe it. bahaha!
LT did a solo....SOOO EFFING AMAZING!!
I was like "Holy crap!! That's LT!!" Mom's jaw about hit the ground...she was sooo shocked!!
The only thing that would have made it perfect would have been to be able to see him and give him a hug (Sweet Jebus..did I really just say that?!)
Oh, well...we had to leave anyway to get stuff ready for tomorrow.
Well, this stormy weather is making me soo sleepy!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
GDO: Girl's Day Out Orignally Written 4-22-11
Hey!!
Okay so today I slept in!!
I eventually woke up and met up with an old friend from high school at the mall!!
We got our nails done together, hung out for a bit..and then I got 2 of those flower/hairbow thingys to go with my Easter outfit.
One was an antique-looking pink (Pretty much the same color as this font) and the other is a black and white feathery one.
After that, we went home and it was storming hella bad.
Oh, my God..we also got my Easter outfit, which included a rockin' pair of Converse.
Okay well...I'm gonna go!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today I slept in!!
I eventually woke up and met up with an old friend from high school at the mall!!
We got our nails done together, hung out for a bit..and then I got 2 of those flower/hairbow thingys to go with my Easter outfit.
One was an antique-looking pink (Pretty much the same color as this font) and the other is a black and white feathery one.
After that, we went home and it was storming hella bad.
Oh, my God..we also got my Easter outfit, which included a rockin' pair of Converse.
Okay well...I'm gonna go!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Don't Forget to Remember Me Orignally written 4-21-11
Hey!!
Okay so today's Thursday..Right now I'm hanging out in the living room..>Dad and I are going to go have dinner later on.
I'm kind of looking forward to it.
Hey! I'm back! Okay so dinner went well...I've missed this a LOT! It makes me hella excited for summer when we have more time to do stuff like this. Well, I'm gonna go relax!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today's Thursday..Right now I'm hanging out in the living room..>Dad and I are going to go have dinner later on.
I'm kind of looking forward to it.
Hey! I'm back! Okay so dinner went well...I've missed this a LOT! It makes me hella excited for summer when we have more time to do stuff like this. Well, I'm gonna go relax!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
She Wants a Fight, Well Now She's Got One..She Ain't Seen Me Crazy Yet Originally written 4-20-11
Hey!!
Okay so today was one interesting day. Because I am technically skpiing the prayer thing on Friday, The ignorant bitch bitched at me this morning for one stupid ass reason and the dumb ass broad thought I lied to her or some stupid shit like that.
I swear to freaking God...these bitches at Family of Faith and I are going to have it out! Oh my God!!
Okay so I wasn't home ten mother effing minutes before she called the damn house phone...I got bitched at some more and then Dad had to start in on me.
FML!! It freaking pissed me off!!
Well, on a lighter and happier note..I am finally a Bacone student!! HELLS YEAH!
I'm soo excited!!!
Well, I gotta go unpack!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today was one interesting day. Because I am technically skpiing the prayer thing on Friday, The ignorant bitch bitched at me this morning for one stupid ass reason and the dumb ass broad thought I lied to her or some stupid shit like that.
I swear to freaking God...these bitches at Family of Faith and I are going to have it out! Oh my God!!
Okay so I wasn't home ten mother effing minutes before she called the damn house phone...I got bitched at some more and then Dad had to start in on me.
FML!! It freaking pissed me off!!
Well, on a lighter and happier note..I am finally a Bacone student!! HELLS YEAH!
I'm soo excited!!!
Well, I gotta go unpack!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Can We Pretend that Airplanes in the Night Sky are Shooting Stars? Originally written 4-19-11
Hey!!
Okay so today was cool.
It was hella long...I spent 6 hours cleaning and packing to go home tomorrow. I need a few days away from everything. Well, it's really late and I'm really tired so I'm gonna head to bed!!
Oh yeah...and I helped out with that food distribution thing again today...It was one of the more intense ones. I was slightly freaked out but it was fine.
Well, I gotta get to bed.
Peace out!!
Okay so today was cool.
It was hella long...I spent 6 hours cleaning and packing to go home tomorrow. I need a few days away from everything. Well, it's really late and I'm really tired so I'm gonna head to bed!!
Oh yeah...and I helped out with that food distribution thing again today...It was one of the more intense ones. I was slightly freaked out but it was fine.
Well, I gotta get to bed.
Peace out!!
A Looonnnggg-Assed Day!! Originally written 4-18-11
Heyy!
Okay so today I finally had that damn test.
I'm kinda nervous to find out how I did but it should be fine!!
Uhm..Yeahh..I had class tonight and it was okay.
I was really tired. It pretty much sucked.
Bahaha!
Soo yeah, it's really late and I'm tired.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today I finally had that damn test.
I'm kinda nervous to find out how I did but it should be fine!!
Uhm..Yeahh..I had class tonight and it was okay.
I was really tired. It pretty much sucked.
Bahaha!
Soo yeah, it's really late and I'm tired.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Get Down and Study-udy-udy Originally Written 4-17-11
Heyy!!
Okay so I just got back from church.
It was okay. Someone I totally loathe hugged me afterwards and I was thinking "What the Hell?!" It was really awkward. Bahaa!! Uhm...then I came home and started studying for that damn test tomorrow. Well, I'm about to find some food and study some more!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so I just got back from church.
It was okay. Someone I totally loathe hugged me afterwards and I was thinking "What the Hell?!" It was really awkward. Bahaa!! Uhm...then I came home and started studying for that damn test tomorrow. Well, I'm about to find some food and study some more!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Another Boring Day Originally Written 4-16-11
Heyy!!
Okay so today's Saturday.
Right now I'm just hanging out in my room...and yeahh..
I should really clean said room but I'm not really feeling it. So yeahh...I'm just gonna end this so I can study for my US History test on Monday.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today's Saturday.
Right now I'm just hanging out in my room...and yeahh..
I should really clean said room but I'm not really feeling it. So yeahh...I'm just gonna end this so I can study for my US History test on Monday.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Just Another Day Originally written 4-15-11
Hey!!
Okay so right now, I'm wayy tired.
Comp. ended early and I'm in the library. I freaking hope that history gets out early as well. I'm unfortunately not going home this weekend but hopefully I can get a lot ofstudying done since I've got a monster US History test Monday. I've really gotta get my crap together and get on the ball with all this homework.
Ughh..this is gonna be a really long day. I'm dreading, dreading, dreading all of it . LOL!!
Okay well...I'm outta here..
So yeah...I basically just hung out all day and did homework. Yeahh...Real eventful, right? So yeah..anyway..
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so right now, I'm wayy tired.
Comp. ended early and I'm in the library. I freaking hope that history gets out early as well. I'm unfortunately not going home this weekend but hopefully I can get a lot ofstudying done since I've got a monster US History test Monday. I've really gotta get my crap together and get on the ball with all this homework.
Ughh..this is gonna be a really long day. I'm dreading, dreading, dreading all of it . LOL!!
Okay well...I'm outta here..
So yeah...I basically just hung out all day and did homework. Yeahh...Real eventful, right? So yeah..anyway..
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Matters of the Heart Originally Written 4-14-11
Heyy!!
Okay so today has been relatively relaxing.
I've been hanging out pretty much all day.
Uhm..so it's been pretty interesting day.
Dad called me and from what he told me..and as I'm writing this, the familiar sting of unshed tears set in.
He said that he was cleaning out the garage and he apparently found something that I wrote him when I was little.. That had to be one of the most emotional conversations I've had with him.
He was like "I've been really concerned about you lately. I hope everything's okay with you."
I was trying to fight back the tears and was like "Yeah. Everything's fine". It made me think about how many secrets and lies that have become the new normal for me lately.
I seriously hate this unshakeable feeling of being such a let-down to both him and mom :-(
Needless to say, upon hanging up, I finally broke down in tears and it definitely put a bit of a somber overcast over my day..Soo...
Note that it was around 4pm and it was like pitch black outside. There was a hella crazy storm and I was home alone. It was like thundering and lightening...annnddd...then it started hailing. I about flipped the fuck out. I was like "Holy shit..what the hell do I do!?" I was pretty effing scared.
Soo...who says my life isn't interesting?? LMAO!
'kay.., well I'm gonna end it here since I gotta get to bed.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today has been relatively relaxing.
I've been hanging out pretty much all day.
Uhm..so it's been pretty interesting day.
Dad called me and from what he told me..and as I'm writing this, the familiar sting of unshed tears set in.
He said that he was cleaning out the garage and he apparently found something that I wrote him when I was little.. That had to be one of the most emotional conversations I've had with him.
He was like "I've been really concerned about you lately. I hope everything's okay with you."
I was trying to fight back the tears and was like "Yeah. Everything's fine". It made me think about how many secrets and lies that have become the new normal for me lately.
I seriously hate this unshakeable feeling of being such a let-down to both him and mom :-(
Needless to say, upon hanging up, I finally broke down in tears and it definitely put a bit of a somber overcast over my day..Soo...
Note that it was around 4pm and it was like pitch black outside. There was a hella crazy storm and I was home alone. It was like thundering and lightening...annnddd...then it started hailing. I about flipped the fuck out. I was like "Holy shit..what the hell do I do!?" I was pretty effing scared.
Soo...who says my life isn't interesting?? LMAO!
'kay.., well I'm gonna end it here since I gotta get to bed.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Too Much to Do, Too Little Time Originally Written 4-13-11
Hey!!
Okay so right now I'm hanging out in the library!
I'm really tired but I've got a TON of stuff to catch up on since the ignorant bitch's Bible study thing is starting back up....Not really sure if I'm going but we shall see.
I've got
6 assignments for Comp.
2 papers to start
Vacuum
Make my bed
Pick up clothes
Clean my bathroom
Clean my desk
Work on my resource file
Do lesson plan
Full day? Sadly yes.
Well, I've gotta head to US History in a couple of minutes.
I'll write more later.
Hey..so..today was in all actuality seimi productive.
I did everything but the homework and vacuuming :-(
I went to the ignorant bitch's house.
I felt...I don't know..like there was tension in the air. Maybe it was just me.
Uhm..so when I got back, I was like dead tired.
And after a couple cups of tea, I kind of got some energy back. Annd..the time is now after midnight so I'm gonna go ahead and get to bed.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so right now I'm hanging out in the library!
I'm really tired but I've got a TON of stuff to catch up on since the ignorant bitch's Bible study thing is starting back up....Not really sure if I'm going but we shall see.
I've got
6 assignments for Comp.
2 papers to start
Vacuum
Make my bed
Pick up clothes
Clean my bathroom
Clean my desk
Work on my resource file
Do lesson plan
Full day? Sadly yes.
Well, I've gotta head to US History in a couple of minutes.
I'll write more later.
Hey..so..today was in all actuality seimi productive.
I did everything but the homework and vacuuming :-(
I went to the ignorant bitch's house.
I felt...I don't know..like there was tension in the air. Maybe it was just me.
Uhm..so when I got back, I was like dead tired.
And after a couple cups of tea, I kind of got some energy back. Annd..the time is now after midnight so I'm gonna go ahead and get to bed.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Beautiful Girls Originally Written 4-12-11
Hey!!
Oaky so right now I'm sitting in the dining room waiting on my hair to dry so we can go eat!
Heyy..Oka so I'm gettin' ready to go get the nails done.
We ate at Las Fuentes! and then went to Walmart.
Now we're gettin ready to head up to Hastings..
Okay so I just got back..things went awesome and now we're headed to the dorms.
Hey!!
Okay so I just got here. I'm about to unpack, do some laundry, have a little dinner and then go to bed early!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Oaky so right now I'm sitting in the dining room waiting on my hair to dry so we can go eat!
Heyy..Oka so I'm gettin' ready to go get the nails done.
We ate at Las Fuentes! and then went to Walmart.
Now we're gettin ready to head up to Hastings..
Okay so I just got back..things went awesome and now we're headed to the dorms.
Hey!!
Okay so I just got here. I'm about to unpack, do some laundry, have a little dinner and then go to bed early!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Momma Mia, Here We Go Again! Originally Written 4-11-11
Hey!!
Okay so right now, I'm in the library until US History starts!!
The beauty of today being that I'm going home!
I definitely need a day or 2 away from everything!! Dear God!!
Hahaha..Okay so Yeahh..I'm gonna write more later.
Oh hey...I'm goin' to Bacone and gettin' my hair did too!!
HELLS YEAH!!
Heyy!! Okay so I just got home and I'm loving my hair!
Bacone went sawesome!! I am almsot officially enrolled for summer and fall. HELLA EXCITED!! I definitely need to be there. It'll be freaking amazing to be back there!!
Well, I'm outta here since tomorrow will be a reealllyy busy day!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Okay so right now, I'm in the library until US History starts!!
The beauty of today being that I'm going home!
I definitely need a day or 2 away from everything!! Dear God!!
Hahaha..Okay so Yeahh..I'm gonna write more later.
Oh hey...I'm goin' to Bacone and gettin' my hair did too!!
HELLS YEAH!!
Heyy!! Okay so I just got home and I'm loving my hair!
Bacone went sawesome!! I am almsot officially enrolled for summer and fall. HELLA EXCITED!! I definitely need to be there. It'll be freaking amazing to be back there!!
Well, I'm outta here since tomorrow will be a reealllyy busy day!
Peace out, Girl scout!
I Got..You Got..the Sweet Sweet Victory of Jesus Originally written 4-10-11
Hey!!
Okay so today's Sunday.
I am soo glad that I'm going home tomorrow!! Today I finally finished the paper I was writing for a frend.
Never again!!
Uhmm..Yeahh..It's late and I'm really tired with an extremely early start tomorrow!!
Peace out, Girl Scout!
Okay so today's Sunday.
I am soo glad that I'm going home tomorrow!! Today I finally finished the paper I was writing for a frend.
Never again!!
Uhmm..Yeahh..It's late and I'm really tired with an extremely early start tomorrow!!
Peace out, Girl Scout!
Workin 4 a Livin' Originally Written 4-9-11
Heyy!
Okay so today's Saturday!
Uhm..Yeahh...I basically just spent the whole day doing my own homework and also working on a paper for a friend of mine, who is paying me to write a paper for her.
I swear, I am definitely not charging enough!!
LOL!! Uhm..Yeahh...that's pretty much it!
So yeah..Imma go!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Okay so today's Saturday!
Uhm..Yeahh...I basically just spent the whole day doing my own homework and also working on a paper for a friend of mine, who is paying me to write a paper for her.
I swear, I am definitely not charging enough!!
LOL!! Uhm..Yeahh...that's pretty much it!
So yeah..Imma go!
Peace out, Girl scout!
Short, Sweet, and to the Point Originally written 4-8-11
Hey!!
So you honestly have no idea how tired I am.
Oh, my God!! Okay so Ididn't get to bed until close to 4a and I had to be up crazy early for class this morning. So I'm sitting here in the library, waiting for US History to start. I'm soo anxious to get that paper handed in today!!
Ugh...After class, it is gonna be nap time for mee!
Okay, well..I gotta go...I'll write more later.
Hey!! I'm back.
Okay so today was relatively uneventful.
Uhm...I turned in my History paper and slept most of the day...well, I'm freaking tired!!
Peace out, Girl Scout!!
So you honestly have no idea how tired I am.
Oh, my God!! Okay so Ididn't get to bed until close to 4a and I had to be up crazy early for class this morning. So I'm sitting here in the library, waiting for US History to start. I'm soo anxious to get that paper handed in today!!
Ugh...After class, it is gonna be nap time for mee!
Okay, well..I gotta go...I'll write more later.
Hey!! I'm back.
Okay so today was relatively uneventful.
Uhm...I turned in my History paper and slept most of the day...well, I'm freaking tired!!
Peace out, Girl Scout!!
Rant and Rave Originally Written 4-7-11
Hey!
Okay so today I don't have class at all..Yay!
Uhmm...I'm thinking that today is..it HAS to be all about homework.
We'll see..uhm..yeah..so I'll write more later.
Okay so I decided to go meet with the ignorant bitch...to really be honest...I know that this is going to make me sound like the most 2-faced ungrateful bitch on the face of the earth..but it seems like the more I meet with her, the more and more I am convinced that by going back to Bacone, I'm definitely sure that I'm making the right move.
I think that I more than likely have said all of this before but now..more than ever...I know that I'm making the right decision.
What's more is that no matter what anyone says, I'm gonna do whatever the hell I want and that's all there is to it.
Screw what everyone says. I will be freaking damned if I let anyone from this cult dictate where I go to school next fall, or if I do whatever whenever.
Well, enough of this rant...It's 11:30pm and I haven't even started on my US History paper.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so today I don't have class at all..Yay!
Uhmm...I'm thinking that today is..it HAS to be all about homework.
We'll see..uhm..yeah..so I'll write more later.
Okay so I decided to go meet with the ignorant bitch...to really be honest...I know that this is going to make me sound like the most 2-faced ungrateful bitch on the face of the earth..but it seems like the more I meet with her, the more and more I am convinced that by going back to Bacone, I'm definitely sure that I'm making the right move.
I think that I more than likely have said all of this before but now..more than ever...I know that I'm making the right decision.
What's more is that no matter what anyone says, I'm gonna do whatever the hell I want and that's all there is to it.
Screw what everyone says. I will be freaking damned if I let anyone from this cult dictate where I go to school next fall, or if I do whatever whenever.
Well, enough of this rant...It's 11:30pm and I haven't even started on my US History paper.
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Another Day in Paradise Originally written 4-6-11
Hey!!
Okay so right now I'm just sitting here.
This is gonna be short.
Today I went to class and it was interesting.
After that, I did homework and unfortunately, it seems like when one assignment gets done, 2 more pop up....ohh goodness.
Okay so I guess it's time to get back to it!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so right now I'm just sitting here.
This is gonna be short.
Today I went to class and it was interesting.
After that, I did homework and unfortunately, it seems like when one assignment gets done, 2 more pop up....ohh goodness.
Okay so I guess it's time to get back to it!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Bulletproof Originally written 4-5-11
Hey!!
Okay so.. guess what?
My instincts were dead on. That stupid ignorant bitch essentially made me meet with her.
Oh, Dear God..that was one crazy ass meeting.
She basically said that if I go back to Bacone, disaster would hit.
I was thinking "Yeah..okay..whatever"
There are so many things that I want ot say that I feel like I can't. I don't feel loved here. At. All.
I feel like I'm just a number. It fucking sucks to no end. It pisses me off when she kept saying that "I was in no shape emotionally and/or spiritually to even make a decision like going back to Bacone"...WTF?!
I basically have it all mapped out in my head that when she wants me to let my guard down, my thinking will always be "When Hell freezes over!!"
That's not gonna happen.
My mind's made up and that's all there is to it.
If she think's I'm gonna open up and pour my heart out..she's got another thing coming...This time:
I WILL BE BULLETPROOF!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so.. guess what?
My instincts were dead on. That stupid ignorant bitch essentially made me meet with her.
Oh, Dear God..that was one crazy ass meeting.
She basically said that if I go back to Bacone, disaster would hit.
I was thinking "Yeah..okay..whatever"
There are so many things that I want ot say that I feel like I can't. I don't feel loved here. At. All.
I feel like I'm just a number. It fucking sucks to no end. It pisses me off when she kept saying that "I was in no shape emotionally and/or spiritually to even make a decision like going back to Bacone"...WTF?!
I basically have it all mapped out in my head that when she wants me to let my guard down, my thinking will always be "When Hell freezes over!!"
That's not gonna happen.
My mind's made up and that's all there is to it.
If she think's I'm gonna open up and pour my heart out..she's got another thing coming...This time:
I WILL BE BULLETPROOF!!
Peace out, Girl scout!!
So Much to Do, So Little Time Originally written 4-4-11
Hey!!
Okay so right now I'm sitting up here in the library. I've got soo much homework to do!!
I've got so much going on this week.
So far today, I've got:
4 assignments for Comp.
The thing for "Rihanna"
My lesson plan
and 2 papers that are comin' up.
**Sigh** This is gonna be a really long day and I am so praying that I don't have to meet with a bitch from Hell today.
Unfortunately, I'm sure that I will..hmm..haha.
Okay well, I gotta go for awhile.
Hey!! I'm back!
Okay so the fact that I was able to dodge calls and texts from a certain someone was a success but I've got a feeling that tomorrow I'm gonna have to buck up and meet with this ignorant bitch.
I'm not looking forward to that. At. All.
Then, fast forwarding to class tonight..we had a relatively short yet fun Methods of Art class.
Ughh...The cycle of homework will NEVER end! Thank God I have all day tomorrow to catch up on homework. :-)
Peace out, Girl scout!!
Okay so right now I'm sitting up here in the library. I've got soo much homework to do!!
I've got so much going on this week.
So far today, I've got:
4 assignments for Comp.
The thing for "Rihanna"
My lesson plan
and 2 papers that are comin' up.
**Sigh** This is gonna be a really long day and I am so praying that I don't have to meet with a bitch from Hell today.
Unfortunately, I'm sure that I will..hmm..haha.
Okay well, I gotta go for awhile.
Hey!! I'm back!
Okay so the fact that I was able to dodge calls and texts from a certain someone was a success but I've got a feeling that tomorrow I'm gonna have to buck up and meet with this ignorant bitch.
I'm not looking forward to that. At. All.
Then, fast forwarding to class tonight..we had a relatively short yet fun Methods of Art class.
Ughh...The cycle of homework will NEVER end! Thank God I have all day tomorrow to catch up on homework. :-)
Peace out, Girl scout!!
A Full Day Originally written 4-3-11
Hey!! So today I went to church, packed up to come back to the dorm, ate, went to Starbucks, and came back to the dorm.
Well, looks like this is the final countdown.
5 weeks and counting!!
I've got a hella early day tomorrow!!
Peace out, girl scout!!
Well, looks like this is the final countdown.
5 weeks and counting!!
I've got a hella early day tomorrow!!
Peace out, girl scout!!
??? Originally written: 4-12-11
Hey!!
So I'm tired and this will be short.
I went to the mall with madre...got a pedicure...went to Barnes and Noble...and came home.
I'm freaking tired.
Peace out, Girl Scout!!
So I'm tired and this will be short.
I went to the mall with madre...got a pedicure...went to Barnes and Noble...and came home.
I'm freaking tired.
Peace out, Girl Scout!!
TGIF Originally written 4-1-11
Hey!!
Okay so at the moment, I'm sitting in the library, snacking on junk food...I know..not the best but Iwas like "If I don't eat anything soon, I'm gonna be sick!" So Yeahh..Ughh..
Thank You, Dear Lord sweet Baby Jesus that I'm going home!! God, I cannot leave this damn place fast enough. I've got a huge mountain of homework so we pretty damn well know what my evening tonight will be consisting of. Kill. Me. Now. I'm hoping I can get my Theology and US History papers done by tomorrow so I can get this printed. This should be fun. Baha.
Hopefully I can get my hair and nails did sometime today too. God knows them puppies need help!!
We'll see. Bahaha!!
I'm soo ready for class to start!!! I've got like another 10 minutes before I have to head down there.
Ugh...on a lighter note, I'm hoping I can start the Philip Mohabir book..I think it's called like Hands of Jesus or something.
Anyway...one of my instructors keep raving about it.
So we'll see...okay well I'm gonna go for a while!!
Hey I'm back!! Okay so it's around 2am. It's been a hella long day.
I got my acceptance letter to Bacone!! HELLLSS YEAHH!!
I am so excited but that also means that the time has come for me to announce me not coming back to Family of Faith. How do you bring up an incredibly difficult subject like that? When is the right time to tell the truth?
Well, I gotta go!!
Peace out, Girl Scout!!
Bye
Okay so at the moment, I'm sitting in the library, snacking on junk food...I know..not the best but Iwas like "If I don't eat anything soon, I'm gonna be sick!" So Yeahh..Ughh..
Thank You, Dear Lord sweet Baby Jesus that I'm going home!! God, I cannot leave this damn place fast enough. I've got a huge mountain of homework so we pretty damn well know what my evening tonight will be consisting of. Kill. Me. Now. I'm hoping I can get my Theology and US History papers done by tomorrow so I can get this printed. This should be fun. Baha.
Hopefully I can get my hair and nails did sometime today too. God knows them puppies need help!!
We'll see. Bahaha!!
I'm soo ready for class to start!!! I've got like another 10 minutes before I have to head down there.
Ugh...on a lighter note, I'm hoping I can start the Philip Mohabir book..I think it's called like Hands of Jesus or something.
Anyway...one of my instructors keep raving about it.
So we'll see...okay well I'm gonna go for a while!!
Hey I'm back!! Okay so it's around 2am. It's been a hella long day.
I got my acceptance letter to Bacone!! HELLLSS YEAHH!!
I am so excited but that also means that the time has come for me to announce me not coming back to Family of Faith. How do you bring up an incredibly difficult subject like that? When is the right time to tell the truth?
Well, I gotta go!!
Peace out, Girl Scout!!
Bye
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Today was a Fairy Tale..Originally Written 3.31.11
Hey!!
Okay so today == Freaking AWESOME!!
I didn't have class today but I had a meeting (Big EFFING SURPRISE!!) with 2 people.
I was like tripping the f*ck out!! I was like seriously going ape sh*t the entire way to the friggin school.
I was so scared. So I go in and sat down and the thing started.
I was almost in tears. Baasically it was that I needed to step my game up and get serious, which i agreed with and I made an 84 on my test. I was soo happy!! I was really fighting back tears. Oh Yeah...I've gotta do meetings 3. Freaking. Times. A. Week.
F*ck. My. Life. Haha..we'll see how that goes.
Needless to say, this shall be interesting.
On the plus side, we had a test in Theology that was an #EpicBomb but the silver lining was that we got pizza and breadsticks.
It was fun.
And I spent the last few hours packing and cleaning to go home.
It's late and I'm tired.
Bye!!
Okay so today == Freaking AWESOME!!
I didn't have class today but I had a meeting (Big EFFING SURPRISE!!) with 2 people.
I was like tripping the f*ck out!! I was like seriously going ape sh*t the entire way to the friggin school.
I was so scared. So I go in and sat down and the thing started.
I was almost in tears. Baasically it was that I needed to step my game up and get serious, which i agreed with and I made an 84 on my test. I was soo happy!! I was really fighting back tears. Oh Yeah...I've gotta do meetings 3. Freaking. Times. A. Week.
F*ck. My. Life. Haha..we'll see how that goes.
Needless to say, this shall be interesting.
On the plus side, we had a test in Theology that was an #EpicBomb but the silver lining was that we got pizza and breadsticks.
It was fun.
And I spent the last few hours packing and cleaning to go home.
It's late and I'm tired.
Bye!!
Whatever Tickles Your Pickle, Dude..Originally Written 3.30.11
Hey!!
Okay so nothing journal worthy happened today. :-(
I didn't really feel good so I slept the better part of the morning. I went to the soaking thingy tonight and it was really hard to get into the spirit but I needed to spend time with God as my sole focus instead of worrying about school, homework, and life in general.
Uhm...We don't have prayer in the morning THANK GOD!!
So..sadly this is pretty much it!
Byee!!
Okay so nothing journal worthy happened today. :-(
I didn't really feel good so I slept the better part of the morning. I went to the soaking thingy tonight and it was really hard to get into the spirit but I needed to spend time with God as my sole focus instead of worrying about school, homework, and life in general.
Uhm...We don't have prayer in the morning THANK GOD!!
So..sadly this is pretty much it!
Byee!!
I See the Fields, They are White...Originally Written 3-29-11
Hey!! Okay so today was flippin' awesome!! Note that becasue today was Tuesday, I didn't have class. I came back to the dorm and woke up at like 1:15. I got a text from someone who had also asked another student if one of us would go to help with a food distribution delivery. I volunteered to go and It. Was. AWESOME!! Okay so we went and it took us like 30 minutes just to get to the house with a full blood Shawnee family. One of the members of this family asked if I was Osage and I was like "Hahaha..No. I'm actually part Cherokee." They looked at me and were like "Wow...you're awfully white to be Cherokee". It was pretty legit. LOL!! So we prayed with the family and then we left. On the way back, we prayed the whole time. I think that what God was showing me and speaking to me and the person I was helping was that we both sensed a lot of oppression and depression in that family. We also senseed a lot of bondage.
The wonderful lady I was helping saif that as I prayed for them, she shensed that a lot of negative emotion and all of this darkness seemed like it was just totally lifted and a lot of the joy that's been stolen for soo long seemed like it was brought back.
Real talk:: I needed it. I needed to hear that. I needed to feel the empowerment that God brings me. To tell you the truth and to be honest, I will be damned if I allow Satan to take...No...If I allow him to steal more ground that wasn't his in the first place. I'll be damned if Satan tries to use me for his sick and twisted agenda. I know that it will hurt like hell but I know that the ineritance I have in Christ will be worth everything I have to go through to get there.
Anyway, we got back to the dorms and we prayed together again and this is what was I guess you would say prophetically..I'm still kinda weirded out by that...but anyway:
"Doesn't she know how much I lover her? Why doesn't she know? Doesn't she know that in My eyes, she's so beautiful. She's beautiful the way she is. Why doesn't she know that?"
Haha...Needless to say, I almost cried. I've gotta say that in all reality, it felt great knowing that even though I struggled for a month or so, I definitely know that I'm back on track. It feels amazing to be part of helping out with this wonderful ministry.
So...After I got back, I spent some time reflecting on all that went on. There were so many things that were going through my head. Gotta love it when God speaks. I cannot wait to work with this special friend again.
So...what God was speaking was:
1. Lyrics to the song "Send Me" where it says "I see the fields, they are white. I hear Your voice as it cries, "Who will go for Me...Whom shall I send..is this the generation that's gonna follow to the end..here we sit in silence with so much to be done, Holy Spirit touch us...we need You to come. Here am I, send me. Here am I, send me. And all that I can offer, I lay it down on Your Alter. Praying Holy Fire, consume me."
2. That worship song that's like "Your Praise is like perfume and I'll lavish it on You."
3. The last one was the Misty Edwards song Dove's Eyes.
Okay so this brings me to about 9pm where I'm currently sitting in Theology II.
Haha..Today's been awesome!!
So..Peace Out, Girl Scout!!
Bye!!
The wonderful lady I was helping saif that as I prayed for them, she shensed that a lot of negative emotion and all of this darkness seemed like it was just totally lifted and a lot of the joy that's been stolen for soo long seemed like it was brought back.
Real talk:: I needed it. I needed to hear that. I needed to feel the empowerment that God brings me. To tell you the truth and to be honest, I will be damned if I allow Satan to take...No...If I allow him to steal more ground that wasn't his in the first place. I'll be damned if Satan tries to use me for his sick and twisted agenda. I know that it will hurt like hell but I know that the ineritance I have in Christ will be worth everything I have to go through to get there.
Anyway, we got back to the dorms and we prayed together again and this is what was I guess you would say prophetically..I'm still kinda weirded out by that...but anyway:
"Doesn't she know how much I lover her? Why doesn't she know? Doesn't she know that in My eyes, she's so beautiful. She's beautiful the way she is. Why doesn't she know that?"
Haha...Needless to say, I almost cried. I've gotta say that in all reality, it felt great knowing that even though I struggled for a month or so, I definitely know that I'm back on track. It feels amazing to be part of helping out with this wonderful ministry.
So...After I got back, I spent some time reflecting on all that went on. There were so many things that were going through my head. Gotta love it when God speaks. I cannot wait to work with this special friend again.
So...what God was speaking was:
1. Lyrics to the song "Send Me" where it says "I see the fields, they are white. I hear Your voice as it cries, "Who will go for Me...Whom shall I send..is this the generation that's gonna follow to the end..here we sit in silence with so much to be done, Holy Spirit touch us...we need You to come. Here am I, send me. Here am I, send me. And all that I can offer, I lay it down on Your Alter. Praying Holy Fire, consume me."
2. That worship song that's like "Your Praise is like perfume and I'll lavish it on You."
3. The last one was the Misty Edwards song Dove's Eyes.
Okay so this brings me to about 9pm where I'm currently sitting in Theology II.
Haha..Today's been awesome!!
So..Peace Out, Girl Scout!!
Bye!!
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